i totally lost my spirit i just can't feel happy anymore...i hate myself for being so stupid

BM for fun

seperti biasa kehidupanku dilitupi kebosanan yang tiada terhingga..keseronokan untuk meluangkan masa bersama kawan hanya berkekalan seketika..masakan beginikah keadaan saya sehingga ku melangkah ke menara gading?! walaupun kehidupan ini tidak membawa kesedihan, masalah seharian tetap wujud dan kegembiraan boleh dikatakan terhad..setelah lama termenung teringat pula zaman kanak-kanak di mana ku ketawa kebanyakan masa dan teruja hanya dengan menonton kartun..adakah ini kerana sikap tamak yang semakin membesar di hatiku..maka ku berdoa dari hati ke tangan dan dari tangan ke dalam blog ini agar keceriaan seharianku dapat ditingkatkan walaupun hanya sedikit,,,sekian~

paiseh bm not good don't condemn my structure i didn't study bm 2 years d

Back to basics!!

maybe mr chua(my boss) shud learn the meaning of punctuality he said 1.30 but came at 2.15...and guess what  he said timing is very important booooo..but he is still a good guy ermm friendly not bossy type of boss..overall he has good personality(for now) and i hope it lasts..i took my second test today lol why this work got so many test eh =.= thank goodness i have a friend with me so i dont really feel so bad for 1st day..err i learn to do addition for fraction(in a faster way) and i was helping my newly known friend to mark a child's paper..the working is all over the place(in the paper la) i need do treasure hunt to find his answer..i get a free mango juice thou.. but i rather get a real mango too bad certain kiam siap ppl just refuse to get me one haha jking jking k la look forward for a better day tomorow :)

Ps:this blog is story mode so i can't write in point form

i dislike my way of writing i mean its so hard to read in a paragraph i will change it next time to point forms

understood!!

there so many things just so hard for my mind to comprehend..perhaps i need a guide book to live my life or something..one of the most confusing thing was why cant i be happy the whole time..i mean i had joy and fun i laughed for an hour but predictably the next thing that will happen to me is emoness,sadness..the problem is i do not know the source of my problem or where exactly the problem that existed..at least i realise a minor problem which is i need to i repeat with caps lock NEED TO forget sth in the past..err no point asking if i had forgotten i wouldn't been saying it here..i dislike city life =.= if i have a choice i would like to be born 100 years ago excluding the wars and stuffs that might get me killed..perhaps in a place where there is a river(clean one) with a bridge above and everyday i pass by the bridge i could stand and look at the river even better if i could see sunset + the river..hmph i want a hill to behind my house or maybe my school or just anywhere near that i can reach lol..ohh then may be i could go up the hill and look at stars at night or i would just camp there with a campfire..hm should i go camp myself or ask a group to join? well it wont happen anyway xD why think so much..even if i got all these things i wonder how long will it keep me happy

Salt

ok this story is different from the movie k..this salt i meant it for cooking
~my life it is just like cooking..sometimes i put too much salt..it tastes okay but the next day i will get ulcer
~or sometimes too little the food lost its tastes
-i mean if i had been hang out with friends too much it feels fun at 1st but it costs and argument happens later on
-if i don't socialise i would had ended up sleeping and rotting at home most of the time
well if you ask me is life simple my answer will be yes
but if you ask me is life fun here is the answer: it is fun when fun time and it is boring when boring time

Hais

one moment everything seems so smooth till until a call spoiled my day...to be continued