shooting stars

7 things i must see in my life:
1)GOD
2)shooting stars
3)thunderstorm in middle of a ship
4)snow in winter
5)volcano eruption(preferbly the safe one)
6)221-B baker street london(sherlock holmes house according book)
7)sunset in a beautiful path with leaves falling and i m on a bicycle

YO! to anyone who sees this blog and think ya can help me to see any of those in the list pls add me in my fb(zhen fei)..and dont crap by saying u can show me the 1st one onli HE can show HIMSELF

hot sun,blue sky,music and bike

i started to think that i go all the way to qb is not because i really wanna find somebody to talk to..the journey itself is fun for me..the wind that blowing from the sea or is that sea breeze? haha nvm details and i am riding on a bike the feeling is just so relaxing..err it would be much better if i go with a bicycle but i worry eh ki beh tuin(can go cannot come back) >.<..lol i talk nonsense a lot xD just realised recently..sayonara~

you are kidding me too many things lately,you're all i need

life starts to get miserable again..but still under control i guess thats how it suppose to be..we never knew what is fun or happy unless we truely experienced sadness and depression..sometimes i might think the same things that i had been doing was it for any purpose? should i really do it? ... well i guess nobody could help me answer that.

There are things i enjoy doing,so i do it often but i do not know how others feel..will it bring joy to them as it brings joy to me? or i might offend them? or at the very least agitate them? i really feel that something will be lost soon erm but it doesn't matters anymore i should just learn to look forward.Haha perhaps i am just too free. Lazy d

To Be Continued

Should i believe in praises?

it is all about expression when it comes to socialising...i think i know what to say just by looking at ppl's face well somehow there are just lotsa ppl who thinks i m interesting like i m some kinda entertainer..well it is not bad to be an entertainer so i just live my role..walking down a street that day i actually saw u pretty looking guy hey what the hell man..i simply cant stand a man who lost their pride maybe different ppl just have different view..i simply dont like it thats all no hard feeling just my own thoughts..then i saw a case in tv that day erm i know you thinking about japan no it is nothing to do with japan..it is about a boy who suicided after his girl friend broke up with him..i seriously think ppl like that are stupid hm yes i am that MEAN of a person just accept it..i mean don't that boy think about the other ppl who cares for him..the father of the boy says he never fail to cry every single night..well maybe i never really fall in love before hence i dunno what is the importance but get real la..its not like thats the only one girl in the world =.=..eh i think many might be offended by my blog this time..i apologise if u are offended but this is my point of view and i do not regret saying this i mean typing this.

THE END

i know i know i ain't any poet but i like this~

When the war of the beasts brings about the world’s end The goddess descends from the sky Wings of light and dark spread afar She guides us to bliss, her gift everlasting.  Infinite in mystery is the gift of the goddess We seek it thus, and take it to the sky Ripples form on the water’s surface The wandering soul knows no rest.  There is no hate, only joy For you are beloved by the goddess Hero of the dawn, Healer of worlds Dreams of the morrow hath the shattered soul Pride is lost Wings stripped away, the end is nigh.  My friend, do you fly away now? To a world that abhors you and I? All that awaits you is a somber morrow No matter where the winds may blow My friend, your desire Is the bringer of life, the gift of the goddess Even if the morrow is barren of promises Nothing shall forestall my return.  My friend, the fates are cruel There are no dreams, no honor remains The arrow has left the bow of the goddess My soul, corrupted by vengeance Hath endured torment, to find the end of the journey In my own salvation And your eternal slumber Legend shall speak Of sacrifice at world’s end The wind sails over the water’s surface Quietly, but surely.  Even if the morrow is barren of promises Nothing shall forestall my return To become the dew that quenches the land To spare the sands, the seas, the skies I offer thee this silent sacrifice.

this is copy paste..i dunno who got the copyright with who so don't sue me pls..tq

i must blog cuz i just got back my confiscated modem

-my mum took my modem away from me for 2 days T.T..well life is not too miserable without internet but it feels lacking of sth right?
-well i am extremely happy that i'm born in the place and time without war..haha why? i just realise i suck at shooting after a paintball game..hehe lol it feels scary a little when i'm in the "battle field"
-i think i try to live a happier life i tried smile more..laugh more..hais i can cheat others but not myself(like some movie dialog =='')
-i think i'm partially disconnected from the world
-i'm very touch when i see my friends concern about me
-at least my smile and laughter is not entirely fake now
-though i look miscible with anyone i do hate certain ppl i just don't tell out
-and i do like someone of course also won't tell out
-nature is beautiful but i hardly find a person who who think so..actually i don't think i know anyone who likes nature erm sad case

muscle pain..till next time i not sure there is next time or no..shud have la

there are many types of ppl around us..all showing different characters in their life ..some people lose hope in all thing they wanted..some gain hope in things they wanted but lost something they treasure at the same time..there also ppl who keep pursuing dreams that will remain as a dream..i m category 1 for now...i am plain tired of my daily life i just wanna rest now...everytime in things i do..there is a hope but then things always got screw up in the end at crucial moments..this is not the 1st time and i wager it won't be the last..anyway i got 2 options:

1)to live a pathetic life happily
2)to live a pathetic life sadly

i choose 1(for now) hope its lasts =)<<fake smile

i totally lost my spirit i just can't feel happy anymore...i hate myself for being so stupid

BM for fun

seperti biasa kehidupanku dilitupi kebosanan yang tiada terhingga..keseronokan untuk meluangkan masa bersama kawan hanya berkekalan seketika..masakan beginikah keadaan saya sehingga ku melangkah ke menara gading?! walaupun kehidupan ini tidak membawa kesedihan, masalah seharian tetap wujud dan kegembiraan boleh dikatakan terhad..setelah lama termenung teringat pula zaman kanak-kanak di mana ku ketawa kebanyakan masa dan teruja hanya dengan menonton kartun..adakah ini kerana sikap tamak yang semakin membesar di hatiku..maka ku berdoa dari hati ke tangan dan dari tangan ke dalam blog ini agar keceriaan seharianku dapat ditingkatkan walaupun hanya sedikit,,,sekian~

paiseh bm not good don't condemn my structure i didn't study bm 2 years d

Back to basics!!

maybe mr chua(my boss) shud learn the meaning of punctuality he said 1.30 but came at 2.15...and guess what  he said timing is very important booooo..but he is still a good guy ermm friendly not bossy type of boss..overall he has good personality(for now) and i hope it lasts..i took my second test today lol why this work got so many test eh =.= thank goodness i have a friend with me so i dont really feel so bad for 1st day..err i learn to do addition for fraction(in a faster way) and i was helping my newly known friend to mark a child's paper..the working is all over the place(in the paper la) i need do treasure hunt to find his answer..i get a free mango juice thou.. but i rather get a real mango too bad certain kiam siap ppl just refuse to get me one haha jking jking k la look forward for a better day tomorow :)

Ps:this blog is story mode so i can't write in point form

i dislike my way of writing i mean its so hard to read in a paragraph i will change it next time to point forms

understood!!

there so many things just so hard for my mind to comprehend..perhaps i need a guide book to live my life or something..one of the most confusing thing was why cant i be happy the whole time..i mean i had joy and fun i laughed for an hour but predictably the next thing that will happen to me is emoness,sadness..the problem is i do not know the source of my problem or where exactly the problem that existed..at least i realise a minor problem which is i need to i repeat with caps lock NEED TO forget sth in the past..err no point asking if i had forgotten i wouldn't been saying it here..i dislike city life =.= if i have a choice i would like to be born 100 years ago excluding the wars and stuffs that might get me killed..perhaps in a place where there is a river(clean one) with a bridge above and everyday i pass by the bridge i could stand and look at the river even better if i could see sunset + the river..hmph i want a hill to behind my house or maybe my school or just anywhere near that i can reach lol..ohh then may be i could go up the hill and look at stars at night or i would just camp there with a campfire..hm should i go camp myself or ask a group to join? well it wont happen anyway xD why think so much..even if i got all these things i wonder how long will it keep me happy

Salt

ok this story is different from the movie k..this salt i meant it for cooking
~my life it is just like cooking..sometimes i put too much salt..it tastes okay but the next day i will get ulcer
~or sometimes too little the food lost its tastes
-i mean if i had been hang out with friends too much it feels fun at 1st but it costs and argument happens later on
-if i don't socialise i would had ended up sleeping and rotting at home most of the time
well if you ask me is life simple my answer will be yes
but if you ask me is life fun here is the answer: it is fun when fun time and it is boring when boring time

Hais

one moment everything seems so smooth till until a call spoiled my day...to be continued

ERROR

hahaha interview today ler friend..i went kfc to have my branch coz i am going for a job interview then sk came for the same purpose...coincidently we met kenny(old frees) at kfc waiting to go cyber cafe..err life sux with just maple and talking nonsense with friends ==''..ok cut the crap, after my meal sk and i went up to kumon sit for 2 mins then the boss(i think) of that place came and gave us a small exam paper..urgh we were only given 15 mins to answer 30-50 questions mostly simple maths but kinda weird since we were too used to the casio 570..ok times up!! i went in 1st he asked me to introduce myself err so i crap for 2 mins..then he starting to filp my certs and explain about our job..the way he talks is as if we already got the job but i don't wanna put up high hopes..coz the higher u hope the harder u fall..then its sk's turn... my old classmate was there so i went to say hi and founded out she will be leaving soon..tomorrow my friends alvin going interview i really hope all of us get the job ^^ my hearts were actually pumping faster than usual when i took the test and the interview..overall it was a fun day the rest of my time were meant for sleeping..good night :)